Sleep

It is currently 01:45 and I should probably be asleep.

There are those that would argue that because it is the weekend, I do not need to sleep at regular times; however, I have just spent the week off work and incrementally later nights have destroyed my normally weak sleeping pattern.

What does this mean? It means that I will be tired next week at work; and that's not like me.

I spoke to my mother on Wednesday evening about a number of topics including the recent departure of a friend of mine from my place of employment and residence.

This 'loss' has left me in a curious state. I would say 'state, as in emotionally' but that would not be entirely accurate as my understanding of emotions is that one must have them before one can express them. I honestly cannot express an emotion about this recent event simply because there is no emotion to express.

Which brings me back to my curious state. It's a curious state of mind, you see. I thought that I had grown to know certain people, I dare say even made friends and opened up a little. However the departure of these people at this time have left less of an impact than I had expected. This is reinforced by the fact that the only contact I have had with them 'since', has been initiated by me.

Reflection is the act of looking at oneself and ones surroundings and trying to see how things could be improved, or even just changed. I have always considered myself to be a living mirror of sorts: forcing people to see themselves, for better or worse. I am reflection of self.

My father was in hospital yesterday. Well, casualty at least. He suffered some form of blackout with described symptoms which sounded heart related. Doctors say there are no abnormalities detected and we are putting it down to exhaustion and lack of food. Stay safe, dad.

Have been playing Assassin's Creed recently. Nice game, very pretty. Though the 'real world' seems to have been given less TLC than the rest; not a big deal due to the limited amount of time you spend there, but it's a shame that a project of this scope would fall on such a minor point.

I find myself at a stage in the game where I must complete a timed mission. I am told that 4 targets must die before noon, and the mission giver decides that would should split this task. So I have 2 targets to kill before noon.

The problems that arise with this are:
Noon is 3 minutes away, the 2 targets are in opposite directions from my current location, and they seem to be linked psychically so that I must kill one, hide, then kill the other when the commotion dies down. In 3 minutes.

Also, how the hell do they know that noon is exactly three minutes away? The game is set during the crusades and I haven't exactly seen many digital watches.

Guitar Hero 3 has also taken up some of my time. The learning curve is pretty insane and I found myself bluffing my way through a lot of the songs at less than the hardest difficulty level. I'm currently on the final set on hard mode and let me tell you: they don't call it thrash metal for nothing.

I recently learned how to make a long resolution wallpaper stretch onto my two monitors as a single continuous image, without the need for the task bar to be extended also. A minor task which I had never devoted any time to until now. So I currently have a very tasteful shot of some red blood cells at microscopic levels. I'll probably change it soon because I think the red is bad for my mental health.

It is currently 02:06 and I should probably be asleep.